More happiness

This could just possibly be my favorite thing ever.

Happiness

Jerome Robbins' Choreography. This just makes me smile. If only gang fights were all dance offs.

Who says you can't go home?

I do. Sometimes. No, not really. It's just weird being back home after a year of living on my own in a completely different and new life, with completely different and new people and situations. It's strange to think that after a short eight months, I got so used to my little BYU freshman way of life and the people in it, that coming back to the place I've lived for 18 years of my life is difficult. Not really difficult, but strange. I've loved seeing my parents again, having my own room is fun, I've made best friends with our new DVR, I have a delicious pile of 7 library books to dive into, and we are going to NYC twice this week. It was also fun seeing some friends and some people in my ward. (not to mention I would be lying if I said that seeing people after you've lost weight is pretty fun) I was asked all the usuals: Major, marital and dating status. what my plans for the summer were. Funny thing is, I already have a calling. Back in the ward for one hour and I had been called to be the primary music leader, which should be a fun challenge. Luckily for me, my mother has been in this calling at least once and still has all the materials. This will be my first "grown-up" calling in this ward, so that will be interesting as well.
Walking onto the campus of the school that I spent 14 years of my life attending and my whole life involved in, gave me the shivers. At one point I had this split-second funny panicky feeling that maybe this whole past wonderful school year had never even happened, and I was back at Hamden Hall, trapped! It's funny but I guess I never really realized how unhappy I had been until I was happy. Not really unhappy, but not happy. It's been fun to tell people about my experience at BYU and how much I've grown. It's been a really great opportunity for me to bear my testimony, which I am really grateful for. Coming back has really been full of mixed emotions both bitter and sweet. I think this will be an interesting summer.

Life is good.

Especially me.

Amazing!

Last night I went to see the BYU BFA student showcase for the seniors in the acting and musical theatre programs, and all I have to say is...wow.

This is one incredibly talented group of people, and I have to say that the casting directors in LA and NYC will be impressed with what they see.

My brother, Murphy, was incredible!  He sang "If I Loved You" from Carousel, and totally made me cry!  His voice is so wonderful, and I hadn't heard him sing for such a long time, it was so great to see how much he has improved.  His monologue "Bigfoot stole my wife" is probably one of the funnier things I've ever seen.  I think that he will be famous some day!  

While I was at the showcase, I recognized a woman whose blog I read regularly.  She is a working actress in NYC and is also LDS.  I love reading her blog because, not only is it really entertaining, she is an inspiration to me as an aspiring actress.  My friend Mariah's parents own the LDS online magazine, Meridian , and she had been wanting to contact this woman about linking her blog to the magazine.  We went up to talk to her, and it was a little funny meeting this woman whose journal I basically read everyday.  She was wonderful and sweet, and when I told her that Murphy was my brother she talked about how talented and great he was and how marketable he was.  She said that she had been going to tell her friends in casting about him, specifically.  So exciting!

The show was so much fun, I loved every piece, and every student was really well showcased, and their specific talents were all put on display.  Watching this show made me simultaneously extremely excited for the future, and intimidated to the extreme.  It made me want to see the future, and to see if I ever get on the BFA acting track, and if I'll ever do this showcase.  I have my second round of proficiencies for the acting track next week!  Excited AND scared!  

Thoughts

"Faith My Eyes" Caedmon's Call

I'm all wrapped up in my mother's face

With a touch of my father, just up around the eyes

And the sound of my sister's laugh

More wrapped up in what binds our ever distant lives

 

And if I must go, things, I trust, will be better off without me

And I don't want to know

Because life is better off a mystery

So keep them coming, these lines on the road

And keep me responsible, be it a light or heavy load

And keep me guessing, these blessings in disguise

I'll walk with grace, my feet, and faith, my eyes.

I can't really put into words what I'm feeling right now, but this song seems to cover a couple of things.  I'm not really sure.  My life is sure mysterious right now, and sometimes I would just like to hire a life detective to figure it all out for me.  Unfortunately, not only does that career not exist, but that's just lazy and irresponsible of me.  First and very important step for me is to go to watch General Conference this weekend.  I think I'm more excited this year than I've ever been for Conference.  Hearing what the Lord's prophet and apostles have to say will be refreshing and helpful in the extreme.  In church they always tell you to go with specific questions, we'll I've got mine, and I'm ready to do some detective work!

also...

also I'm pregnant...  

APRIL FOOLS!

April Fools.

I think this snow is the biggest April Fool's joke of all time.  I am DONE with the snow.  Where is the sun?  It seems like years since it's been here.

HAPPY APRIL!  Happy weather is coming, I can just feel it!